HaN YeN's Life…

Suddenly.. she treated me so cold.. especially today.. she didnt even bother to talk with me at all….
Recently.. when we are going out.. she only kept talking with her friends.. I can feel it.. as if I am not there.. tried to tell her my feelings.. maybe she don’t get it or understand it.. or is it that she really don’t care?… I don’t know what to do now.. sigh…

Tonight.. my mom asked me whether if I want to have a car or not.. of course I want.. but think about it.. if I agreed with it, my mom might have really bought it, and will increase burden of hers… don’t feel like increasing her burden already.. me studying at college already cost a lot…

Went to Midvalley today.. and watched Final Destination…
After that.. went to walk around..
She’s keep sticking with ella.. and talk with her.. feel like I’m being left out..
She didn’t even talk much with me, that day.. previously also like this.. then cant stand it anymore… tried to tell her, but only partly… If you ask me to tell everything, 100% original, I don’t know how to tell her.. maybe writing in blog is an option for me to release my feeling and opinions.. continue to keep it inside my heart I will surely go crazy…

Everytime when we go out together, she’s just keep talking with her friends.. really.. don’t like that feeling. It feels as if I’m being left out.. somemore, sometimes when people says that we are couple.. she just dont like to admit it and pushes it away… that feeling is like… hurting…

Of course I know, she’s not serious about it. But it still DONT feel nice. It feels as if there is a wall, separating both of us… don’t know how to say… sigh..

@@”… sometimes feel like im going overboard.. must learn to control myself and respect others….

Hah.. sometimes I wish.. that even having a very own motorcycle.. is better than nothing…
With it.. I can go anywhere I want.. anytime I want.. i wont give anyone troubles… better than nothing…
But… need to get a license for it.. so troublesome… and lazy.. -.-”

Got myself very busy recently… problems arise, assignments, presentation, homeworks, games (LOL), haha… so .. a little lazy to update my blog…